by on February 27, 2014

Restlessness! That is the word I would use to encompass my feelings of late.  Restless with the slowness for spring to arrive.  The pace of the snow melt is enough to make me desire a move south.  Perhaps a visit to California to see my brother would help, but I am certain that will not solve the feeling.  I have been restless with my prayer life, unable to sit and focus as I normally do, impatient to hear a word from God.  Restless with the pace of my life, the slowness, the cabin fever, the need to be outdoors and breathe in all that the air has to offer. Restless in awaiting direction and next steps from God.

Interestingly enough, a song was played at church last weekend that gave me a solution to my restlessness.  The song is by Audrey Assad-Restless-and there is a line in the song that pierced my heart:

And I’m restless, I’m restless
’Til I rest in You, ’til I rest in You
I’m restless, I’m restless
’Til I rest in You, ’til I rest in You
Oh God, I wanna rest in You

This really is the solution.  I am restless because I have chosen to not rest in the Lord.  I have chosen to brood and try to force the hand of God into seeing things my way. Urging him to pick up the pace, to move it along, when all along all I need to do is rest and trust.  All I really need to do is abide in the one who is in control and knows what is best for me.

I had that aha moment Saturday night,  that moment when the restlessness became so unbearable and I knew the only right thing to do was to rest in Him and trust Him. I have taken the necessary step to return to the loving arms of my Savior, confessing my need to control, and instead I am choosing to trust him to know the pace and timing of my next steps.

How often we become impatient with the pace of change, with the stillness and quietness of a day, or a season in our lives.  It is difficult to be patient in this fast paced world we live in.  Difficult to feel like life is standing still and God has us in a holding pattern.  These holding patterns are truly the time to dig into his word, to meditate and pray for direction.  A time to ask God to open our hearts wide to his next calling, to make us fully available to him. To be pliable in his hands as he prepares us for whatever comes next in life.

For me, Isaiah 26:3-4 provides the one of the keys to peace in this season.

You will keep in perfect peace
him whose mind is steadfast,
because he trusts in you.
Trust in the Lord forever,
for the Lord, the Lord
is the Rock eternal.

 To better abide in this season, to trust more fully, to be steadfast, I need to read his word, meditate upon it, pray, and listen.  Then I will be at peace, the restlessness will subside as I rest in God.  What spiritual practices do you employ when restlessness hits your soul? Is there a verse you cling to and meditate upon? I pray you cling to the one who is the Rock eternal.


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