My book club surprised me Friday night with a “50” party. What a hoot! Lots of laughter, hilarious gifts, and some beautiful ones as well. And for those of you who know us, yes we even talked about the book we had read. This group of women are such a blessing to my life. We’ve walked life together for many years, sharing the ups and downs of life, celebrating milestones, and enjoying lots of laughter, very loud laughter, as our families can attest to as well.
I am so grateful for the wisdom that comes with age. I am realizing, that as I approach 50 (just 10 days away), I don’t have life all figured out and that is ok. Half the fun of living is learning as I go, trying new things, and just experiencing the journey along the way.
It took me a long time to get to this point, 50 years to be exact and maybe that is part of the blessing of age. I have become comfortable in my own skin and although what others think of me matters at times, most of the time…it really doesn’t concern me. I feel freer now than I was in my 40’s, I am definitely wiser than when I was in my 30’s, and I am more mature in my relationship with Christ than I have ever been.
With age comes perspective. I have a better perspective on my position in relation to God. He has shown me my sinfulness and wilfulness for what it is-me simply wanting to be in control of my own life. Rebellion still rears it’s ugly head on occasion even at my age, and it is a humbling experience as God points it out each time. Sometimes it’s the same rebellious attitude over the same thing and I think, really again, you think I’d have learned, but our gracious God, in His infinite patience, clearly points out my rebellion and brings me back to center.
For me, and every Christ follower, the Bible is our source of wisdom. The Bible’s wisdom is as applicable to daily life today as it was when it was written. Although the world has changed, the message is the same. Love. Jesus is the perfect example of how to love. He gave up His life for us while we were still sinners, He didn’t wait for us to clean up our act, that is Love (Romans 5:8).
The Bible is filled with examples of everyday men and women living their lives with and without God at the center. We can relate to their successes and failures and through it all, we see God’s faithfulness. As I look back today on my life, I can see God’s faithfulness to me, even before I followed Him, I can see His patient revelation of Himself and His protection.
Now at almost 50, I look back on life with eyes of wisdom from a life lived with Christ. I see the Bible as my navigation tool, a road map of sorts, to live the remaining years of my life. Jesus is my guide and the Holy Spirit in me helps me to keep me on track. Though I may stumble I trust Jesus to keep me from falling (Psalm 37:23-24).
Proverbs 3:5-6 sums it up best, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”
I may not always understand the path before me, but if I take one step forward onto the path God lays before me, I know He will be faithful to keep me moving towards His call. His is the wisdom to live by and I look forward to the continued journey as I seek to follow Him each day.